The screaming siren woke us up at 2 a.m. It was unclear whether we were under attack by a chemical weapon. Our son was only 18 months old, screaming as we forced him into a gas tent. We tried to calm him down through the tent, wearing gas masks on our faces.
The Gulf War in 1991 was the most traumatic of the four wars I lived through before moving from Israel to the U.S. Once, a Scud missile landed very close to our home. I will never forget the sound.
I recall like yesterday my frustration and anxiety, coupled with feelings of hopelessness, knowing there was little I could do to protect my son. I wish no mother ever had to experience the feeling.
Last weekend, more than 700 rockets were fired at Israel. My 25-year-old daughter, unsafe where she lives, moved in with my sister for a few days. The memories came back to me—the same feelings of hopelessness and fear I experienced many years ago. I questioned, again, whether there will ever be a time when my family and friends will be safe in Israel.
I reminded myself that I cannot stop the rockets, but I do have the power to shift my energy.
While we don’t always have the power to change our circumstances, we can choose to shift from feeling anxious and hopeless to feeling centered and at peace.
Here is what helped me shift:
- Sitting in meditation
- Giving myself Reiki and sending healing energy to my loved ones
- Reaching out to my Reiki community to ask others to send healing energy and prayers to Israel
- Practicing gratitude for what I have
- Uplifting myself energetically and shifting to hope, optimism, and trust so I can be in better service to my daughter and the rest of my family when I speak with them
Being a mother is hard, but taking those actions brought me peace. Yet imagine the toll of such conflicts on Mother Earth. Never a moment of peace.
Peace is an inside out process. It starts with us.
I don’t know if it will be politics, education, or maybe technology that will help us find a way to live at peace, regardless of religion, nation, gender…
I’m not sure if there will ever be a time where nations will not attack nations. When world leaders work together toward world peace.
When we give Mother Earth a break.
But I accept my responsibility as a beacon.
And I hope that you choose to accept our sacred responsibility as well.
We, beacons, have a sacred responsibility to light the path for others.
We can practice compassion and gratitude.
We can believe.
We can hope.
We can rise.
We can shift.
We can practice love and kindness.
We can do our best to put Mother Earth at peace.
We have a world to change, and the change starts with us.
Happy Mother’s Day, beacon. Are you with me?